FORSAKEN?
By John R.
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verse:46 About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice,
"Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?"-which means, "My God,
my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Matt 27:45-46).
Have you ever felt like God has forsaken you? Have you
ever reached a point in your life where you thought you simply could not go
on? Have you ever wished for death because of the trials, tribulations,
pain and struggle you face every single day of your life? Have you ever
thought that any existence, other than the one you have, could be better than
the life that you lead? Have you ever questioned God’s love? If you
have, please know that you are not alone. In fact, you are very much
surrounded by others who have experienced the same thing. Some of them
experience this feeling each and every day of their lives.
I thought God was a loving God, that He was a merciful God,
that He cared for and loved His children. If that is the case, then why
do we live lives that are filled with pain? Why does an all-powerful God
allow bad things to happen to His children? Why do the righteous suffer
while the immoral prosper?
Just before the moment of His death, Jesus experienced a deep feeling of desperation, a perception that God the Father had literally turned His back upon His only begotten Son. Hanging on the cross, bleeding from a beating that had left Him disfigured to the point that He was unrecognizable, no longer able to support His own weight, bearing the ridicule and disdain of the crowds who only days before chanted His name proclaiming Him to be King, He turned to His Father, the One Who was omniscient, omnipresent and omnipotent to find what? He discovered that the One Who had walked with Him each and every day of His life, the One Who had never left Him, the One Who loved Him more than anyone could imagine, had turned His back upon Him. At this moment, Jesus cried out in desperation in His humanity feeling utterly and completely abandoned. For the first time ever, He was alone – wholly, totally, alone. The King of the universe, the Son of God, the Word Who was with God and was God (John 1:1) was no longer on His throne – He was dying alone bearing the weight of the world’s sins upon His shoulders
I have always been taught that God turned His back upon
Jesus during the crucifixion because God could not bear to see the sin that
Jesus was taking upon Himself. Jesus became the ultimate sacrifice for
sin for the sake of all mankind. I have even read that Jesus actually
became sin for the sake of the ones who would be His elect. And yet,
while this may be true, why did God turn His back? Wasn’t He strong in
His omnipotence to bear the sight of this sacrifice? Or, was there
another reason for Jesus to feel that God had turned His back? Was there
another purpose behind Jesus’ cry on the cross?
[Sidenote: That volitional sacrifice took
place because the Jewish sacrificial system was a system designed to remind the
people of the need for shed blood for redemption of sin and yet, it could never
fulfill the ultimate purpose of cleansing people of their sin and establishing
a relationship with God. The sacrifice of an animal would never suffice;
it took the sacrifice of the only One Who would willingly give up a
perfectly-lived life for the sake of those who would be willing to accept the gift
of salvation through the grace of God. That gift is still
available for those willing to accept it.]
I believe that Jesus never did anything without a
purpose. Everything Jesus said or did during His life on this earth had
meaning and purpose behind it. If that is the case, then what was the purpose
behind that desperate cry on the cross at Calvary? Was it simply the cry
of a man who had lost everything and was staring at the end of his existence or
was it the cry of the Son of Man Who was crushing the head of Satan? If
Jesus was the same, yesterday, today and forever (See Hebrews 13:8), then He,
in His pain and desperation, was once again acting for the benefit of those who
would seek Him out and follow Him. He cried out with His voice echoing
through the ages for our benefit. He felt what we feel. Perhaps His
feeling of abandonment was worse than anything anyone has ever
experienced. God, His constant companion throughout eternity, was no
longer there. Jesus was no longer in direct communication with God.
Just like Jesus, there are times when we too feel like God has abandoned
us. Therefore, what can we learn from Jesus’ cry? What does that
cry mean to us?
The word “forsaken” in the original text is egkataleipo
meaning to leave behind in some place, i.e. (in a good sense) let remain over,
or (in a bad sense) to desert. (Strong's Numbers and Concordance with
Expanded Greek-Hebrew Dictionary. Copyright (c) 1994). Clearly, what took
place on Golgotha was not simply a leaving behind or letting someone remain (in
a good sense); rather, the word “forsaken”, taken in context, meant that God
deserted Him. He abandoned Jesus, leaving Him totally isolated.
Despite Jesus’ authority and power, He was left completely by Himself.
There are so many times in our lives that we feel that same way and just like
Jesus, we cry out “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?”
However, is this reality? Are we really
forsaken? Has God deserted us, leaving us to our own devices? Are
we truly alone? Surely, no one has ever experienced this sense of loss,
this feeling of pain and abandonment? Surely, I am the only person who
has ever felt this way before. And, if this is the case, then why?
Why do I have to deal with it?
2 Corinthians 4:8-11
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8 We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed;
perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down,
but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus,
so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11 For we who are
alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life
may be revealed in our mortal body.
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8 We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are
perplexed, but not in despair; 9 Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast
down, but not destroyed; 10 Always bearing about in the body the dying of the
Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body.
11 For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the
life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh.
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The reality is that while we may feel like God has abandoned
us, that is not the case. We are pressed, we are tormented, we are
troubled, we are persecuted but we are not destroyed. I recognize that
there are times when we feel like we are standing on the brink of oblivion but
we are not forgotten. God knows and God cares.
We do not live for ourselves; rather, we now live for
God. We live according to His purpose and sometimes that is a purpose
that we cannot discern. If you choose to give your life to God, why do
you complain about what He does with it?
The life of Jesus should be revealed in the way we
live. We are given an imperfect body, a body that is dying (some more
quickly than others) so that His life might be revealed through us. Your
physical life, while trying and terrible in some ways, is no longer your
own. Perhaps you have heard the words to a popular Christian contemporary
song: I am not my own, I was bought with a price. I was
purchased with the precious blood of Jesus Christ. All my debts were paid
by His sacrifice. Hallelujah to the Lamb Who redeems my life.
Acts 20:28; 1 Corinthians 6:19-20; 1
Corinthians 7:23-24
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Acts 20:28
Keep watch over yourselves and all the flock of which the Holy
Spirit has made you overseers. Be shepherds of the church of God, which he
bought with his own blood.
1 Cor 6:19-20
Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit,
who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; 20 you
were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.
1 Cor 7:23-24
You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of men. 24
Brothers, each man, as responsible to God, should remain in the situation God
called him to.
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Acts 20:28
28 Take heed therefore unto yourselves, and to all the flock,
over which the Holy Ghost hath made you overseers, to feed the church of God,
which he hath purchased with his own blood.
1 Cor 6:19-20
19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy
Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? 20 For
ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your
spirit, which are God's.
1 Cor 7:23-24
23 Ye are bought with a price; be not ye the servants of men.
24 Brethren, let every man, wherein he is called, therein abide with God.
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This idea that we were purchased with the precious blood of
Jesus is a foreign concept to the world. Why would we willingly subject ourselves
to a life devoted in service to a person who lived two millennia ago? The
answer – love. He first loved us and gave Himself up willingly for us so
that we could spend eternity in His presence. When I repented of my sins
and asked Jesus to come into my life to be my Lord and my Savior, I willingly
surrendered to Him. I yielded my life to Him; my body and my soul became
His.
Yes, I know what it means to feel like God has turned His
back. I understand and can relate to what you are going through. I
actually do feel your pain. After starting life with what was initially
diagnosed as terminal cancer, I endured my early years of pain thinking that
the day would come when I would finally be released from these
difficulties. After all, the doctors told me that I had gone through the
worst of it and that I would have no more need to wear a body brace after I had
achieved my full height. Only after entering my middle years of life did
I find out that my belief was only a belief – it was not reality. In the
past four years, I have dealt with a crippling physical condition that mandated
comprehensive reconstructive spinal surgery. The second surgery left me
in a six week coma from blood sepsis, e-coli and staph; I also went through two
bouts of pneumonia while in the coma. Ultimately, the seven major spinal
surgeries I endured left me crippled and dealing with severe chronic pain on a
daily basis. Even the most effective (and addictive) narcotic pain
medication could only “take the edge off” and then only for a short
while. It left me with extreme nerve damage to my legs and surgical
wounds that took four months to heal as I lay in a hospital bed. The year
and a half I spent laying flat on my back left me in a state of despair wishing
that my life would end. Rehabilitation only took me so far after that
experience and thoughts of suicide became a serious concern. Even now, I
deal with third degree burns resulting from an error in judgment, i.e. falling
asleep on a heating pad while trying to assuage the pain. Surely, God had
turned His back on me. Surely, I had been forsaken. And yet, I was
still alive when all of my doctors thought that I should be dead. I was
still functioning, if a bit more slowly, while others younger than I met their
end. I could not understand.
Hebrews 13:5-6
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5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content
with what you have, because God has said, "Never will I leave you; never
will I forsake you." 6 So we say with confidence, "The Lord
is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"
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5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be
content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave
thee, nor forsake thee. 6 So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper,
and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
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Had God turned His back upon me? Was I forsaken,
deserted, abandoned? Or, had something else taken place? Why would God
let these things happen to me? Hadn’t I tried to live a good life?
Hadn’t I done the things He would want from me? After all, I had been a
Sunday School teacher for many years; I had served on church committees; I had
been a deacon; I had been a trustee; I had tithed; I had served; I had given to
the poor; I had helped my fellow man. There are sure a lot of “I’s” in
there, aren’t there? On the other hand, was my spiritual life so precious
to God that He was willing to let me endure these hardships for a greater
purpose? If I am His child, then didn’t it hurt Him to see me go through
these things? Then, why would He let me?
Forsaken – never! Loved – absolutely! He loves
me so much that just like Paul, His grace is sufficient for me. When I
had no one else, He was there. When everyone thought I would die, He
sustained me. When I faltered, He encouraged. When I lost hope, He
rescued me. When I was weak, He lent me His strength.
I am convinced that God is much more concerned about our
spiritual well-being than He is about our physical well-being and He will allow
life’s circumstances to drive us to where we must be – on our knees at the foot
of the cross – if that is what it takes to conform us to His image. (In
church context, we call that “sanctification.”) What we endure in this
life is not important; how we respond to life’s trials is because it reveals
our character.
Now, at this point in my life, I
yearn for Him. I long to be with Him. I am a foreigner far from
home and like the prodigal son, I only want to see my Father’s face. My
life is His; I gave it to Him and I will not ask for it back. I pray that
He use my life to His glory, His honor, His purpose and that it be a life lived
as a daily sacrifice for Him. If I can just do that, then perhaps one day
I will stand before my Savior to hear Him say, “Well done, good and faithful
servant.” Then it will all be worthwhile. Until that time, no
matter what life may throw at me, I know that I am not forsaken; instead, He
loves me enough to refine me as through fire. And I also know that when
He molds me and makes me, He must hold me, never letting me go. How do I
know, you might ask? Because He is my Father and I am His child. He
died for me. After all that, He isn’t about to lose me. Or you.